Tune out

What happens when optimism fizzles like flat soda?

When encouragement coos turn into resigning buzzes?

When prayers for your ache to end seem to cease altogether?

When conversations are shaded with sympathy for something that hasn’t died?

What happens when the one who was always in your corner doesn’t believe anymore?

Should I join the mourning?

Throw in the towel?

Should I mask the pain?

Soak my responses in simple syrup to ease awkward askers?

Or should I continue to believe for myself?

Yes, I think I’ll do just that.

Tuning out the world and tuning in God is the greatest choice. 


“This happened because Abraham believed in the God who brings the dead back to life and who creates new things out of nothing. Even when there was no reason for hope, Abraham kept hoping—believing that he would become the father of many nations. For God had said to him, “That’s how many descendants you will have!” And Abraham’s faith did not weaken, even though, at about 100 years of age, he figured his body was as good as dead—and so was Sarah’s womb. Abraham never wavered in believing God’s promise. In fact, his faith grew stronger, and in this he brought glory to God. He was fully convinced that God is able to do whatever He promises. 

-Romans 4:17-20

The Humble Princess

They spent their days in lowly places.

Faithfully, they worked.

One thoroughly washed soiled linen and dusty windows.

The other diligently toiled for hours, gathering discarded food for her household.

They spent their days in lowly places.

One in an unfamiliar country.

The other in an unloving home.

With little complaint and much dedication,

they spent each day in a lowly place.

It would be so simple to say they deserved to be beneath.

The orphaned daughter to slave for her family.

The foreign widow to leave her birthplace for a foreign land and a new God.

But the lowly place was not the result of a lousy lot in life.  

Rather, it served as a reflection of each woman’s nature.

In their eponymous books, Ruth and Cinderella unselfishly work for the good of those around them.

In particular, Ruth’s sacrificial acts revealed incredible kindness and amazed all who heard. 

Ruth’s pedestrian duties didn’t prevent what was coming.

The sparkling elevation already decided by the Author.

Instead, her life became a demonstration in humility.

A princess with the heart of a servant. 


When you do things, do not let selfishness or pride be your guide. Instead, be humble and give more honor to others than to yourselves. Do not be interested only in your own life, but be interested in the lives of others.

-Philippians 2:3-4

In Remembrance

The gunshots faintly echo in my ears.

My punched lip is still tender.

I remember it well.

My hands are rough from the bitter wild.

My head has a dull ache from the lie hangover.

I remember it well.

My heart still beats erratically from the overdose on fear.

I remember it well.

Very well.

2013 was traumatic and left marks that have not yet faded.

But along with the scars came unexpected strength.

Sudden focus.

Unanticipated faith.

So I remember it well.

And will continue to run.

With my crown on my head.

And the King helping me along.

I remember it well

And will continue to run

With purpose

in every single step. 


-Don’t you realize that in a race everyone runs, but only one person gets the prize? So run to win! All athletes are disciplined in their training. They do it to win a prize that will fade away, but we do it for an eternal prize. So I run with purpose in every step. I am not just shadowboxing. 

I Corinthians 9:24-26